~wordz~

when you love someone,
you open yourself up to suffering,
that's the sad truth...

maybe they'll break your heart,

maybe you'll break their heart,

and never be able to look at yourself in the same way,

those are the risks,

that's the burden...

like wings,

they have weight,

we feel that weight on our backs,

but they are a burden that lifts us,

burdens which allow us to fly....

p/s: suffering is a way of life,,,

hanya nasihat

jaga lah hati seorang wanita itu dengan sebaik baik nya,

kerana sekali anda membuatkan nye kecewa,

sukar untuk dia mempercayai anda kembali...

hati wanita mungkin senang untuk dipujuk,

namun sukar untuk melupakan...

p/s: saya boley bergurau,

tapi itu xbermaksud saya tak terluka,,,

-be MINE-

bermula di facebook,

u IM I dulu tak tahu malu,

I malas nak layan,

 soI buat tak tahu,

you terus cuba dan mencuba,

sehingga I jatuh cinta,

gatalnya diri you,

membuat I terjatuh,

bila kita da start mengada,

kita selalu keluar bersama,

borak panjang-panjang,

makan dan tengok wayang,

sikit-sikit je I merajuk,

you selalu sabar pujuk,

tapi sebenarnya I cuma test u saja,

let me tell you that I love you,

and I never wanna wrong you,

take my hand ------,

come,go through with me,

let me tell you that I miss you,

and I never wanna lose you,

you're my heart -----,

my life is incomplete without you,

dalam pada I gembira,

sometimes I feel so sad juga,

cause I da berpunya,

but I always want you to be mine forever,

please be mine forever...

p/s: hanya aku cinta kau seorang

-LoST-

mood: jiwang sejiwang alam...

bende yang aku paling takut nak rasa atas dunia ini adalah,

rasa kehilangan,

hilang perasaaan,

hilang ingatan,

hilang hati,

hilang cinta,

hilang keluarga,

hilang kawan,

hilang pape aje,

hilang sesuatu milik aku,,

iye,

aku memang suka pikir yang bukan2,

kadang2 la,

bak kata member aku,

'hidup kne ada balance'

aku ske emo sorg2,

merenung mse depan,

akn ada lgi ke mse depan untuk aku,

perasaan bile kite hilang sesuatu milik kite,

sangat sakit,

dan tak dapat dilupakan,

terkilan,

terkejut,

tak sangka kite akan hilang ia,

sebab 2 kadang2 aku boley jdi,

'a total control freak'

sebab aku sayang segala-galanye yang jadi milik aku,

dan aku x nak lalui perasaan kehilangan 2,

aku xske sdey,

dan aku x ske sakit,

so sorry pada yang rimas ngan aku,

tapi ketahui la,

sebab aku jadi mcm 2,

adalah sebab,

aku sayang kamu...

p/s: noktah

Ciri-Ciri Suami Yang Aku Nak

sejak2 aku sampai kat negeri kesayangan aku ni, yakni Melaka, rata2 member yang aku jumpa cakap pasal calon suami, tarikh kahwin, dan yang sewaktu dengannya,,,


cuti sem ari 2 pun banyak kad2 kahwin menyinggah di rumah, beserta jugak soalan2 bom atom daripada mak cik-mak cik yang suka ambik berat pasal hidup aku ni,,,
"da besar along sekarang, bile nak kahwin", kata sorang mak cik ni,
aku cume mampu tersenyum sambil mencarut dalam hati,,,
aku pelik betul dengan mak cik-mak cik ni, masa sekolah dulu bukan main nasihat suruh belajar betul2, jangan bercinta, nanti rosak masa depan, tapi alih2 bila kite da masuk je 20 tahun, sibuk je tanya bile nak kahwin, apa, dyorang ingat nak cari laki ni macam pilih ikan kat pasar ke, pening kepala aku,,,


tapi memandangkan da ramai sangat yang tanya, aku ada la jugak terpikir pasal benda ni, dan aku rasa aku da ada pun kriteria2 yang aku nak pada laki aku nanti,,,

1. Solat fardhu cukup 5 waktu.
2. Ada kerja gaji RM800-1500 dan ke atas, boleh bayar rumah sewa, boleh beli beras, boleh isi minyak, boleh hantar ke tempat keje. Nafkah zahir boleh bagi, bukan nafkah batin je tau.
3. Ada kenderaan: motor kapcai dah cantek. honda EX5 orait sangat la tu dengan 2 helmet. Basikal pun boleh, tapi penat kayuh kalau dari Kelantan ke airport. Sebaik-baiknya kereta, sebab nanti nak bawa isteri yang mengandung ke klinik setiap bulan.
4. Lulus ujian fardhu ‘ain sekolah rendah. Maknanya boleh mandi wajib dengan baik dan boleh ajar isteri mandi wajib dengan betul, apatah lagi mandi-mandi yang lain.
5. Boleh baca al-Quran dan boleh mengajar al-Quran walaupun setakat “Alif Ba’ Ta’” sampai Surah “Iqra’ Bismirabbikallazi Khalaq.”
6. Jenis lurus, baik & hati baik, tak menipu (ni penting). Takdelah sampai menipu kata nak pergi Mydin tapi pergi mengorat jiran taman sebelah.
7. Dia paham aku dan aku pun boleh, paham dia. Paham jiwa gitu. Serasi bersama. Berbeza tapi boleh masuk.
8. Gedik joget-joget pun depan bini dan anak-anak je. Depan orang lain sopan santun gitu.
9. Jenis tak cemburu buta sangat. Cemburu macam ni ok, “Ehemm.. ramainya kawan laki kat opis.. Jangan sampai lupa abang taw..”
10. Belajar takat Diploma je pun takpe, janji cara dia fikir tu matang dari yang belajar PhD. Tapi kalau dapat yang belajar lebih tinggi daripada aku pun orait jugak. Sebab mak bapak aku sangat pentingkan pelajaran.
11. Kalau dia jenis diam takdelah sampai orang kata tak bergaul dengan manusia lain. Kalau dia banyak bercakap pun takdelah sampai dia mengata-ngata orang lain.
12. Malas juga ke masjid, tapi dia pergi gak dalam sehari tu 2 kali sekurang-kurangnya Maghrib dan Isyak. Sembahyang Jumaaat tak pernah buat2 lupa.
13. Walaupun tak kerap ke kuliah agama, tapi bila tengok Youtube Ustaz Azhar Idrus ngajar tu sampai terlupa nak tengok bola. Jika ada kuliah di masjid muka dialah ada di antara orang-orang kampung.
14. Boleh susah senang bersama. Kalau isteri nangis, dia tolong riba isteri dan tenangkan. Kalau isteri sakit, dia tolong jaga dari malam sampai pagi.
15. Jenis senyum sokmo.
16. Boleh terima perangai adik2 aku sekali. 


so, to my future husband, saya harap kita bahagia berumahtangga. sebab saya takut cerai. saya juga akan cuba penuhi syarat awak, selagi saya mampu. terima kasih. 

p/s: growing up is difficult,,,

-let me love you-

you're just good to be true,,,

can't take my eyes off you,,,

you'd be like heaven to touch,,,

I wanna hold you so much,,,

at long last love has arrived,,,

and I thank God I'm alive,,,

you're just to good to be true,,,

can't take my eyes off you,,,

pardon the way that I stare,,,

there's nothing else to compare,,,

the sight of you leaves me weak,,,

there are no words left to speak,,,

but if you feel like I feel,,,

please let me know that it's real,,,

you're just good to be true,,,

can't take my eyes off you,,,

I love you ----,,,

and if it's quite alright,,,

I need you ----,,,

to warm a lonely night,,,

I love you ----,,,

trust in me when I say,,,

oh pretty ----,,,,

don't bring me down, I pray,,,

oh, pretty ----, now that I found you, stay,,,

and let me love you, ----,,,,

let me love you,,,

p/s: showing what my heart feel,,,

hope it's okay...

*Exam Come*

tengah2 aku duk sedap bace entri blog/status kt fb org,,,

pasal study week la,,,

seronok boley balik umah la,,,

tup2 final sudah,,,

langsung xde kesedaran sivik bile bangun je pgi 2,

roommate aku da bising2 ulangkaji last sblm pegi exam,,,

aku pun dgn mke penuh slamber dan innocent,,,

terus pegi mandi,,,

(kena g mandi lu,bru bley study)

exam start 2.15,,

so lex lu,,,

da ciap2 bancuh nescafe secawan,,,

aku pun duduk la menyempit kat ats katil kaka (kak ika),,

konon2 nak tumpang ilmu sekaki,,,

nasib baik roommate aku semua pandai2,,

apa soalan aku tanye pub dy org bley jwab,,,

mmg terbaik r,,,

kalau x masak aku, apa nak jawab dalam dewan jap g,,,

sblm melangkah keluar dari bilik,,,

aku ada la buat revision sendiri ckit2,,,

tgk mne yang nak kne letak,,,

tgk2 format menjawab cmne,,,

ok,da puas hti,,

kunci loker,,

trus blah,,,

sbnr nye first paper da lepas da pun,,,

hri isnin yg lalu,,,

dan buku BEL 311 pn da slmt aku jual kt bdak junior,,,

malas la aku nak simpan lme2,,,

nnt sentimentel plak,,,

tpi malam ni bru ada tenaga tangan nak menulis,,,

biasa la,,,

aku sbnr nye sibuk buat revision,,,

revision citer korea,,,

mmg terbaik r,,,

*sbnr nye aku kelas MMC1103C,,

terima kasih pada cik seri ayu,,,

sbb bgi aku izin copy slip exam ni,,,

7 subjek untuk sem ni,,,

berat bahu memikul beg dan buku2 yg ada sekaliannya,,,

lenguh kaki menapak ke fakulti baru di bukit,,,

yang mengambil masa setengah jam lamanya,,,

berat mata dan badan bila kelas di pagi hari,,,

pening kepala bila kelas di tengah hari,,,

sejuk dingin tubuh bila kelas di malam hari,,,

7 paper menentukan nasib kami sem depan,,

7 paper menentukan usaha kami sekalian,,,

get ready syg,,,

it will be our fight,,,

to:TTJ 2008...

p/s: still no sound,,,

9 Deadly Words Used By Women

if you hear this, you will not get a good night sleep...

1) Fine This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2) Five Minutes 
If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3) Nothing 
This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4) Go Ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don’t Do It!

5) Loud Sigh
This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot
and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6) That’s Okay
This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That’s okay means she wants to think long and hard before
deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7) Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you’re welcome. (I want to add in a clause here – This is true, unless she says ‘Thanks a lot’ – that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say ‘you’re welcome’ . that will bring on a ‘whatever’).

8 ) Whatever
Is a woman’s way of saying F– YOU!

9) Don’t worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This
will later result in a man asking ‘What’s wrong?’ For the woman’s response refer to #3.

p/s: one word I want to say everyday,

I care about you, actually...

*real boyfriend*

just read and understand,

girls are complicated,

that's why you need  them...

When she stares at your mouth

Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she

thinks shes stronger than you

Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough

Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet

Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you

Give her your attention

When she pulls away

Pull her back

When you see her at her worst

Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying

Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking

Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared

Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie

Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you

Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time

reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt

Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you

she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands

Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;

bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret

keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes

dont look away until she does

When she says it's over

she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin

she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Don't talk about other girls around her

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:

"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"

p/s: love is about how you show it...

.U-S.

It's like he doesn't hear a word I say,

His mind is somewhere far away,

And I don't know how to get there,

It's like all he wants is to chill out,

He makes me wanna pull my hair out,

Like he doesn't even care,

You, Me,

Face to face,

But we don't see eye to eye,

Like fire and rain,

You can drive me insane,

But I can't stay mad at you for anything,

We're Venus and Mars,

We're like different stars,

But you're the harmony,

To every song I sing,

And I wouldn't change a thing,

Why he does try to read my mind?

It's not good to psychoanalyze,

It's what all my friends say,

You, Me,

Face to face,

But we don't see eye to eye,

Like fire and rain,

You can drive me insane,

But I can't stay mad at you for anything,

We're Venus and Mars,

We're like different stars,

But you're the harmony,

To every song I sing,

And I wouldn't change a thing,

When I'm yes, he's no,

When I hold on he just lets go,

We're perfectly imperfect,

But I wouldn't change a thing, no

We're like fire and rain, 

You can drive me insane,

But I can't stay mad at you for anything,

We're Venus and Mars,

We're like different stars,

But you're the harmony,

To every song I sing,

And I wouldn't change a thing,

But I can't stay mad at you for anything,

We're Venus and Mars,

We're like different stars,

But you're the harmony,

To every song I sing,

And I wouldn't change a,

Wouldn't change a thing...

p/s: i love the person I hate

TTJ 2008

ari 2 da citer psal bear udoh,

skrg nk cter psal bdak bilik plak,

xley la pilih kasih,

nnt merajuk..

TTJ 2008, nme d bri..

tun teja 2008, nme dlm ic..

d cni la tmpt kami bermadu kasih,

bertekak leher,

melolong mendayu,

menyumpah seranah,

dan segala bgai aktiviti yg x senonoh la..

first of all,

kak ila a.k.a nurul nabilla,

asal terengganu,

seorg yg sgt gler kamera,

sape2 yg xknal dy mngkin ckp dy sopan,

but the reality can shock u..

umur, 22 this year..

u sgt comel la kak..

hikhikhik..

n the second eldest sis in our room is kak ika,

nurul atiekah,jge dr ganu,,

she is like a mom to all of us..

seorg yg simple but heavy..

talkative but pendiam...

 this is me n seri ayu,,

sgt ske pic ni...

asal kajang,

already got a boyfriend...

sgt3 talkative,,,

mmpunyai suara yg bley mnyaingi ning baizura,,,

also a blogger,,,

and very ske mencarut...

still 20...

 minah ketot ni nme nye mia iera,,,

blogger jgak sbnr nye tpi da xactive,

sbb xley bkak blog sndri gara2 xingt password,

kuikuikui..

pdan mke....

also a 20,

from perak,

ank mnje n ank sedara ning baizura jgak..

always ad krisis ngan bf2 dy..

pening aku..

dan ini lah kami,,,

menggiler sepnjg mse,,,

maaf pde yg terasa,,,

bkan niat nak buat dose...

i luv u all la..

c again next sem...

p/s: jiwa kcau mngenang memori lme...